Oy vey, I'm alive!

Goooooooood grief it's been too long since I've had the time to blog.

In the past few weeks I've been runnink amok. Amok. Amok. Amok.

I've presided over my last PTSO meeting of the school year. I've had my nails done. Twice. I've had my toes done. I've coordinated an 8th grade graduation. I've emcee'd an awards ceremony. I've had a yard sale. I've drank. I've used my garage sale proceeds to purchase a tank of gas in both Bob's truck and my Jeep as well as a fine, greasy dinner from Long John Silvers. I've seen Shrek the Third or whatever it is. I've seen my beautiful, amazing child mature from a 7th grader into an 8th grader. I've developed not one but two zits on my face. I've been mosquito bit 7 times. I've even received a promotion of some sorts at work.

This is just the tip of the ice berg. I know there is more. Lots more.

Let me think....... nah, I don't wanna.

This weekend was my garage sale. I had so much shit it was amazing. I sold clothes like you would not believe. My God was I fat. I put on a pair of my old shorts. Shorts that were tight on me. And I nearly fell over getting them off! My kid climbed in with me too and they were still too big! It was hilarious!

Looking back it's hard to remember being that big. I still feel like I'm there but I know I'm not. I can cross my legs. I can sit in a theater seat. I don't need a seat belt extender for my vehicles (or airplanes or whatever). I can ride a rollercoaster. I can walk around a theme park and enjoy myself. I can buy clothes in the misses section. I can do so much now that I thought I could do before but I was only fooling myself. I was half assing so much while, in reality, I was double assing it. So sad....... I was so sad.

This weekend I'm having a Pampered Chef party. I'm nervous and excited. Anxious and eager. Ok, I'm a total wreck. The last party I had totally sucked. The consultant lady freakin' FORGOT about my party and had to reschedule it! I had a house full of people who I had bribed with fancy little finger foods and alcohol and she forgets about me. That is just wrong. I do think this will be fun though, lots of fun!!!!!!!

I've spent a lot of time watching movies lately. Here's what I can remember off the top of my head:

Shrek III - not as good as the first 2 but Mike Myers rocks and you simply have to see it. HAVE TO. The babies don't come in until the end and that depressed me but I loved the dragon/donkey babies. So freakin' adorable. The princesses cracked me up, very funny.

Music & Lyrics - excellent, very sweet and romantic. I loved it. Drew Barrymore is just the perfect romantic lead. She owned that part. I loved Hugh Grant too. He's dopey yet adorable. Classic yet quirky. Definitely gotta watch it again.

Catch & Release - This movie was one I really wanted to see. I thought it was a romantic comedy and it was sort of. The male lead, Timothy Olyphant, was Seth Bullock in Deadwood and let me tell you he was definitely a reason to watch Deadwood. I'm also a big fan of Jennifer Garner, she's so perky and beautiful, so sweet and just nice. The movie wasn't as good as I expected, or really just wasn't what I expected. It was good, but just not what I thought.......

The Departed - Leo DiCaprio is someone that I've watched for a very long time. Not because I wanted to, but because he's been in a lot of shows. I remember him as a little boy in Growing Pains, he wasn't Boner, but he was in the cast. Then I watched him in What's Eating Gilbert Grape and Titanic and soooooo many other movies. He's never really impressed me although he is good. My old Bosslady really liked him and so at her urging I watched him in The Aviator and Catch Me If You Can. Again, good movies, just not something that grabbed me. Now, this movie, The Departed, that grabbed me. He was mature and total eye candy. Mark Walberg is also eye candy, ok, not so much in this, but still. Matt Damon, helloooooooo eye candy!!!!!!! I love a good mob movie and this was good, I'll probably buy it I liked it so much.

Because I Said So - This was excellent. One to watch with your mother if you and your mother are close and if you're not it'll embarrass the snot out of her and make you feel good. LOL Definitely one I'll want to buy once the price goes down!!

This weekend looks to be a fair one. We're going camping and I'm having a Pampered Chef party. I have to clean my house some more and buy goodies for the party, oh joy. I have to wonder if I'm on crack sometimes.......

Week in Review

It's Thursday Friday and I've had no time to share, no time to blog, no time to do anything.

Saturday was the 17th anniversary of my wedding. Yes, I've been married for 17 long years. I don't know how we've managed to stay together this long but we have. Go figure. My mom came over and watched MWH while Bob and I went out. We had a fantastic dinner at the restaraunt at the new casino in Wyandotte, I think it's called Twin Rivers. The portions are huge and the prices are decent. Slightly high, but who isn't anymore? I wish they'd lower the portion size AND the price too but oh well. We had a nice time out but I'm glad I only have 1 anniversary a year.

Sunday was Mother's Day and I did NOT get to sleep in. How fucking hard is it to NOT wake me up? 'nuf said

MWH and I spent the day baking. We baked a birthday cake for one of the attorneys I work with and then we baked little rounds for my mom and for me and MWH. They were sooooooo yummy. I made home made butter cream icing and we had fresh strawberries and ooooooooh my goodness, YUMOOOOOO!

Monday I took off work early so I could go to Tulsa with a new friend of mine, T, to go to a WLS support group meeting. I met some really nice folks and we all went out to eat at Cheddar's afterwards. I didn't get home until midnight but it was fantastic!

I took Tuesday off because I had a day coming since I worked on my birthday last month so I stayed home and did little to nothing. Ok, I lied. I watched "Because I Said So" on DVD and I slept. I did a little laundry and I slept. I cried and I slept. I did get out the ol' Rainbow and vacuumed the whole house. God my carpets are filthy. I need a new everyday vacuum.......

Wednesday I went to lunch with my new friend, T, and one of her not so new friends, B. These ladies like to play the ponies and I sooooooo did not know what was going on. I fear that I could learn it though. LOL I always thought you had to bet big on horses but oy vey was I wrong! They were betting $2 and $3 on a race and having a hoot and a half! I never did get enough guts to do it but maybe next time...... maybe.

Thursday evening MWH was inducted into the National Junior Honor Society. I am so extremely proud of her!!!!!!!!!!! I asked a work client's son if he was going to be in NJHS and he said no, he wasn't being abducted. I nearly fell out of my chair. His dad slapped him up the head and said INducted, boy, NOT ABducted!! Then he muttered, no wonder.......... LOL HILARIOUS!!!!!!! After the induction we went out to dinner at my fav Mexican place and it didn't taste right so I threw it up 30 minutes later. Ah, life is good. LOL

I got home in time to watch the season finale of Grey's Anatomy and oh how I wish my life were like that. Who would I be most like? Ok, none of them, I have no desire to be that smart or skilled or talented. Who am I fooling?

Today Bob called me to tell me gas is up to $3.29 at Murphy USA. Hello, WTF? We will NOT be eating out this week. Not. One. Single. Time. PERIOD. Why is gas so high? Don't we have control in Iraq?????????

Well my lunch hour is almost over and I'm angry about the price of gas so I guess I'll get off here before I really get pissed off.

utter exhaustion

that is my definition of ME this week

utterly

completely

exhausted

Monday night, at 12:32 am, Bob woke me up to take him to the emergency room. He'd been throwing up since about 30 minutes after dinner at the Mexican place I hate (MWH picked the place, I just can't deny my kid). If you want to know which place, just walk a 1/2 block east of my office and you'll see it. LOL

So I throw on my sweats and take him to the hospital and the healing ensues. Bob has thrown up at least 20 times. He's cold, clammy, sweaty, tired, achey, sore and miserable. I'm just tired. They draw some blood and then put an IV in his arm and walk away, finally about 45 minutes later they hook him up to the IV fluids. Sheesh...... At 1:30 or so, Bob tells me to go home and check on MWH. He kept my cell so he could call me when he was ready to go home. The doctor said it would only be another hour or two so when I do get home I didn't go to sleep. I figured a few minutes of sleep would be more of a problem than no sleep. I don't know if I was right or wrong. LOL I dozed off around 3:45 or so and he calls me at 4:30 to come get him. He walked out all my himself, that was impressive considering he pretty much crawled in carrying a puke bucket. My alarm goes off at 6:00 and Bob had to call in to work at 6:30 so another short nap happened. Life is hell sometimes. Theree 45 minute cat naps can kill you. LOL

Tuesday morning after mere minutes of sleep over the past 12 hours I had to go BACK to the hospital to do my bloodwork so I had been fasting. Being up all night unable to eat (ok, not really a problem for me) or drink (that was a HUGE problem) is hard!!!!!!! Wicked hard! The whole bloodwork fiasco was insane. The first lab was missing one of the countless vials I needed so I had to go over to the hospital to actually draw my labs. Once the needle was inserted, the phlebotomist (sp?) informed me that my $1000 labs would be cheaper if I had a DLO req rather than an Access req so, in the rain, I made countless trips between the hospital lab and the doctor's office center lab and my primary doctor's office..... In. The. Rain. Tired. Hungry. Thirsty. Cold. Wet.

I did finally make it to work and all was well. I was exhausted and felt like shit but work never stops and I love it. It kept me going all day. Granted, I was dragging ass but I was going.

MWH had her spring chorus concert at the Coleman Tuesday night so still couldn't get any rest but I did have some super fab conversation with Brady's Mom and her hubby who sat next to me. She's so nice and I'm so proud of her finishing her schooling!

I had the 8th grade promotion last night and I'll have to discuss that later...... I just can't bring myself to do it right now. LOL

This weekend looks to be full and there will be no rest yet again. Oh well, I'll die someday and there will be plenty of time to sleep!

Fun!!!!!!!

This weekend was incredible for me. Mrs. Coach and I took our girls to Branson. We. Had. Fun. No men, no responsibilities, no regret! LOL

Mrs. C picked me and Miss Whineyhiney up first thing and we hit the road with both feet running. The girls were in a great mood, we were chatty and happy and the weather was outstanding! Our first stop was Silver Dollar City (as we all have season passes) and actually, the traffic wasn't too bad, just the last 3 miles or so was slow, not nearly as bad as when I chaperoned the chorus trip though! We entered the park and headed towards the Wildfire ride and Nati got stung by a bee. Poor child, she's allergic! Mrs. C comforted her and I sprang into first aid mode and asked a restaraunt for a food serving glove full of ice. Nati cried a bit but was fine after all the attention and ice and we went on, nothing was going to stop us from having a great day! We had honey sticks and walked and talked and made it to Wildfire. Mrs. C and I had never ridden it before, Mrs. C because she usually had to stay with the kiddos and me because I was too fat, so we left the girls to fend for themselves and we rode it together. Wildfire virgins we are not! That was soooooooo much fun, never had I ridden one like that before! WOW!!!!!!!! After our wild ride, Mrs. C rode it again with MWH so I could take a gander at the gift shop. I bet Nati will be tall enough next year though...... Although, there were kids smaller than her riding it, I just don't understand why parents are so freakin' stupid. Helloooooo, there is a minimum height requirement!

After plunging off of Wildfire and getting that milestone out of the way we walked more and headed over to the exposition area which is mostly for kids. We rode the kiddie swings and that was pretty much it for me. I'm so afraid of heights it's not even funny. I am OK if I'll die from the fall but if I'm just gonna get hurt and break something I don't want any part of it. I did NOT like those little kiddie swings at all. Nope. Not at all. MWH was next to me and I kept kicking her seat, the ride operator had to come over and show me how to put my seat thing on and it nearly embarrassed me but hell, I was having so much fun! I fit into the seat, the first time in about 20 years!!!!!!! He teased me about kicking MWH and said I'd better behave or he'd kick me off the ride. LOL That would have been right up my alley....... LOL

After the swings, I'd had enough of being lifted off the ground for a while so Mrs. C and I sat back and enjoyed the sun and the cool, spring breezes. We also gawked at the idiots around us and enjoyed our girls entertaining each other. That is such a great feeling, being able to sit and chat while your kids are safe, happy and having fun. Loved that part......

The girls rode tons of rides in the expo area and I cried. Ok, so I didn't cry but my eyes looked like I did. I had put on a ton of sun block and it was running down into my eyes and tearing me up. I kept washing my eyes but it wasn't helping. Mrs. C said it was probably the bushes around me and I think she was right. They smelled like body odor, NASTY!!!!!!!

Again we walked and talked and hit a few shops. Mrs. C found the mill and bought Mr. Coach some freshly milled flour and baking stuff so she can do some kitchen magic for him. The mill was really neat, they showed how they do it all and the girls thought it was neat! It smelled soooooooo good in there! YUM!

We had lunch at Mary's Springhouse, a little Italian eatery and it really was good. The food is really expensive but the portions were plenty big enough that MWH and I shared and still threw a lot away, I'm so glad we didn't get two meals! Actually, one dish would have probably served all 4 of us if we'd really thought about it. LOL

Next I think we went to the Lost River. We were in line for about 15 minutes or so and a ton of people in front of us left. They were all muttering that the ride was closed or that it was going to be a 2 to 3 hour wait. Mrs. C said they'd done that last time too and it wasn't that long...... so we waited. Poor Mrs. C and her ankle....... The line did seem to go on forever, we waited for right at an hour and finally did make it up to the raft. Just us 4, no one else, that was nice. Mrs. C and I got freakin' soaked, the girls, not so much..... Why is that? LOL They wanted it, we didn't!! LOL Ah, kids! Here is a pic of the girls on the rocks while we were waiting in line for the Lost River.

After that we did some more shopping and walking and bought some fresh pork rinds and talked more. We decided to hit the candy store and make our way out of the park. It was such a great day!!!!!!

It's hilarious too though how you run into people you know when you're on vacation. Mrs. C ran into a relative of hers, I know her from Girl Scouts and she's also a Mary Kay rep. I ran into a guy I went to grade school with, Brandy Williams, and his family. MHS's chorus and WRMS band was there so MWH saw lots of her friends. And I ran into Angie and her family as we were heading out!! Lots of people out and about, you just can't go anywhere anymore! LOL

We left the park and went to the Settle Inn to check into our room and unload before we hit the Landing. We were VERY impressed with our room, not bad for $59.98 plus tax! Here are some pics of the girls with the midevil statues.

We went to the Branson Landing for dinner at Waxy O'Shea's and it was simply divine!! We walked and talked and saw a beautiful water and light show which is simply amazing. We did a little shopping, I can't say no to a Build-A-Bear store....... ever. I swear we have 5 animals (or is it 6 now?) and enough clothes to clothe a 3rd world nation. MWH's almost too big for BABW stuff but I'll never outgrow it! LOL

The girls were exhausted and ready to swim so we headed back to the castle, er um hotel, and swam a little. Mrs. C got the cutest swim suit! I'm so jealous. She's proportioned right and doesn't have all the lumps like me....... if I didn't like her so much I'd have given her dirty, go to hell looks and splashed her 'cause I'm mean like that........ LOL

I don't remember what time we crashed but let me tell you we all went to sleep fast, it didn't take long at all, everyone had spent every bit of energy we had running around all day!

Sunday we had the continental breakfast at the hotel lobby and I kid you not we were the youngest people in the room. There was a seriously tacky Elvis impersonator singing gospel and he was seriously not good. Seriously.

The Settle Inn has lots of theme rooms and Mrs. C wants to stay in the Gone With The Wind room so we asked the front desk to show us some of the theme rooms and that was entirely awesome! The GWTW room was booked so we didn't see it but I do believe we'll get a theme room the next time we go!

Our next stop was at the Amish store where we indulged in chocolate milk mix lots of other yummies. We headed back to the Landing so we could Ride the Ducks and finish up our shopping. The girls got to play "Captain". Here's MWH in the captain's seat! (I'm sure Mrs. C will put up Nati's pic too.)

We ate lunch at Famous Dave's and had the best freakin' BBQ I've had in years! YUMMOOOOOOO! Mrs. Coach and Nati sure do know how to pick 'em!

If you still haven't been to the Branson Landing you're really missing something. You've simply got to go. All I can say is that it's brought Branson into the 21st century. They have shops, REAL shops, not outlets. It has atmosphere and style. It's just very modern yet comfortable.

I know there was more that I wanted to share but it's Thursday and I've been working on this one single fucking post since Monday so I'm done.

serious thoughs

I'm having serious thoughts of deleting my blog.

Who has time to post anymore? Not me..... I'm too busy LIVING life, I barely have time to pee let alone post about whether my tp is single ply or quilted or what. Hellooooooo, who really gives a fuck anyway?

Tomorrow marks my 1 year anniversary from having my surgery. As of this moment, I'm 136 pounds lighter than I was 1 year ago. That's a lot of weight. A lot. I keep getting asked how much more I want to lose and I still don't have an answer. I just want to be healthy. I'm still 40 pounds or so away from a "healthy" BMI. I don't know if I want to be that thin or not..... I have a lot of thinking to do. I like where I'm at now, would I like less of me more?

I have a major project that I'm involved in and I don't like it. I'm in over my head and wish I weren't involved. The shoes I was left to fill are tremendous and there's no way that I can fill them. I know someone is going to run me down after it's all said and done but I just don't care anymore. No one else wanted to even try...... Bite me.

I'm seriously thinking of telling someone off. I'm not sure if it's truly necessary, that they deserve it, or if I'm just being bitchy. I'll probably just let it all slide...... who knows. I just know I can't take much more of it.

Before I log off, I need to say good night to someone...... They know who they are. (((HUG)))